Life Right Now

Heyy. So this blog may be a lil hard to write, because my contacts are shiftinbg around like crazy and my mascara keeps sticking my eye lids together. Ehhhhh haha.

Today started as a meh day, then went to a bad day, then quickly picked up into a great day. Earlier today was my Grandma's memorial service. It was really, really nice. I'm used to Catholic funerals but the Methodist ones are ok too :) The only bad part I was the only person crying, like realllllly crying. Pretty sure I was PMS-ing, but whatever. I just kept getting angrier that I was crying and it made it worse lol but it's ok :) Because Patti and Thomas were there to hug me! hehe
Then I got to catch up with my cousins from Ohio, which was cool. Later I chilled with all the younger cousins, all 15 of them lol I really love my family :)

Later, I went to Rahul's house for his 18th birthday party!! Crazy stuff lol But it was a really good night. I just like where everything is at this point of the year, like, despite the occasions freak outs over little things, its good =)
I also determined I really like talking to people outside of my immediate friend circle! Like Jordan and Achyut!


The world is filled with really cool people. :)

Friends

There are alot of things I could blog about right now. Like how roast beef ramen doesn't taste like roast beef, but rather some unidentifiable kind of meat. It's true!

Alot of stuff has happened this week. Well, not quite many things, but one huge, terrible event that shook my school and all the students who go there. So many thoughts because of it. I'd rather not blog about it...I would feel weird, like, I didn't know him so why should I have the right to talk about how his death changed me? Maybe someday. But not now. <3


Tonight, I would like to write about my friends please. I've been thinkin alot about them lately, how important they are to me, how I couldn't possibly live without them. But I'm also worried about my friendships. This past year, there was a large ordeal with 5 of my closest friends. Long story short, I still don't know where I messed up and what I did wrong, and I don't know if I'm gonna get these friends back. And I was alright, you know? I was hurt by the fault in the friendships, but I knew even if I missed them, I could carry on, and maybe someday we could rekindle our friendships. And I knew that I could depend on the other friends I have, the ones who helped me out with this ordeal. But now I feel like I'm doubting that a bit.
I'm doubting if my friends feel the same way about me as I feel about them. My friends, the closest ones to me, are my family. They are my brothers and sisters and without them I would be lost. And that's the truth, I love all of them very,very much. But I'm worried that I'm gonna lose them, that our friendships are gonna get hurt. Partially because of what happened with the other 5 friends. I'm afraid that I did (or am going to do) something that I don't realize makes them feel differently about me, and not want to be my friends anymore. It's kinda silly, I know. I'm really scared though. I hate not knowing what I've done to upset someone and I just don't want to lose anyone. I know that the transition to college is gonna take a toll on all of my close friendships; we won't see each other as often, and we really gotta try at keeping in touch, I mean you know how that goes. And I'm not writing this in like the "clingy-friend" kinda way. Honestly, I have beautiful people in my life that I just don't want to let go.

What if we forget about each other? What if something happens to someone? It's one of those things in life that I am scared shitless about but know that I gotta suck it up and not complain and hope for the best.


The basic point of this rant: I don't want to make mistakes. I pray to God that people forgive for what I've done. I hope people know how much they mean to me.
Please, God, keep us all together.

Totally Feels like a Tuesday for No Good Reason

Wooooohooo! Done studying for today. Which makes me think maybe I should have invested a bit more time....ohwell.

Tis finals week! Luckily, I only have three main finals, being Lit, Physics, and Euro. Physics is a bit annoying, because if I get a C on the midterm, I get a C in the class for the semester. Ploopsicles. No pressure there really huh?

I have decided though that I won't freak out too much this week. Just a lil bit. Because, what's the worst that could happen? I am in colleges already =P
However I did set up a sweet study area. Chocolate milk, which wakes up your brain. Music (in a variety of languages other than English, which I have a theory about), a fun tshirt that makes me smile (Relay for Life: 2010, The Bricks!), Poco (the cat), my study buddy, and newly installed moving heater (cause our house gets cold after 10) and this new lamp that my parents got that apparently simulates real sunlight! hm!

Anywho. Informing your about my study place is kinda lame and boring...haha sorry. Moving on....
I've been tossing around the whole "become a veterinarian" idea a whole lot more. I think its pretty interesting, and I think it'd make me pretty happy. And they're are lots of perks too! Like, MSU's study abroad options are in Mexico and India (both of which I would totally love to go to) and during the India one, you spend two weeks at an elephant preserve!! Freakin elephants!! So cool lol More to come on this topic.

I'm kinda excited for the new semester. I have a semi-chill schedule, and Lit with Andrea, and Nutrition with Teena, and Med careers with John Shoop! Yayyyy haha.
I'm also excited for spring. I can't wait to roll down the windows of my car and wear sunglasses, and omgosh I can't wait to get tan again! hehe. =)

I feel like I should write about something serious now. To update on whats happened recently in my life, I guess. A few weeks ago, my Grandma died. I've never dealt with death like I did this time though. She was in the hospital for a few days, after one of many blood transfusions, and the aortic valve that had been weakening finally gave out. I wasen't as...emotional as I expected when it happened. There are certain days when I think about it and I really miss her, and other days it seems like shes not gone. Idk if thats weird or not...I was able to say goodbye to her. Which I guess was a big deal for me. Then I was to cope on my own, have some kinda closure. I still feel like I should be...sadder though. Ya know? Ah man. I also feel...weird about the whole process now. My Grandma wasen't Catholic, so we're not really having a full-on mass, more like a service, and its only supposed to be 20 minutes long. That really bothers me. And so of my relatives might not be coming for it...I don't know. I mean, I wouldn't have cared if she was Jewish or Buddist or anything but I feel like SOME kind of ceremony is necessary. Or is it just me?

Just something on my mind.

Have a good night =)

Break!

It is finally here. Now after a few days of stressfulness- it finally feels like Christmas break. I discovered that I really need to chill the eff about stuff sometimes. Like, as soon as we left school, I was thinkin "I have _____ work for _____ class to do-why arn't I doing it". Really now self-is that any way to spend senior year?
Arabic is finally over. Thank God. That was a semester's worth of ridiculousness. I realllllly hope college is not like Arabic class-if so that won't work out at all.
In other to-be-published news, I've heard back from 5 of my 6 applied colleges, which means, YES, I heard from UofM! Yeah they deferred me. Lol. I was really sad for one day, and then bitter, and to be honest the bitterness is still wearing off, but I've come to terms with it. And hey! I'm getting interviewed by some Duke guy next week! Yeah, if I got deferred from UofM, same thing will probably happen with Duke, but at least they care enough to count my personality ;D
Break is pretty chill so far. Spending alot of time at home, went sledding, had a girl's sleepover (which turned out to be pretty awesome), finished AP Euro homework (HUGE accomplishment) and and and finished Christmas shopping!
I got my brother the COOLEST thing. This!



The Limited-Edition-Only-At-Target-Red-and-Clear-Nerf-VULCAN-EBF-25!!!
And I thought of it before my parents. Hehehe.
I also finished Rahul's gift! And that's all on that subject :D
Christmas will be really great :) I hope everyone is well and all flights are safe and everyone feels warm and fuzzy inside! <3

I think I've finally settled down with life. I'm not freaking out about colleges anymore, and while I know I still have to try, I'm not gonna rule my life with that thought. It's a nice feeling that everything is going to be ok.



Christmas love is cool :D. I'm gonna go to bed now cause it's 4am. Goodnight, and have a good day today :)

Resolution

Heh. Turns out that last blog about my complaining actually got totally resolved. The DVD situation was fixed and the final: take home!!

I'm in such a spectacular mood right now it's ridiculous. I'm in a mood where "I turn off my computer-get up to go to bed-and think-hey I wanna blog about this happy feeling which is overflowing out of my heart and making every lil cell in my body smile". Maybe that's a bit to detailed. Well, I at least hope my cells are smiling. Or a majority of them. Anywho. This probably has to do with Rahul (who I probably talk about too much but thats ok). I don't know man. Maybe it's the plain white t's song that has been on repeat for the past half hour. Maybe it's that happy blog that Patti finally linked me to with all the pretty pictures that make your heart smile. But I mean, damn, this is a happy feeling. What a switch from yesterday. Basically, yesterday I got all worked up over a kind of little thing because I am a woman and that little thing was the feather to fall upon my crying pile. Poof. But now, everything is ok.


Dang...everything is ok. Like seriously, at this very moment, I couldn't tell you a single thing wrong with my life if I tried. Wow. Maybe that chicken my mom made for dinner was drugged. But really now! Is it silly of me to wanna smile like an idiot and hug people and smile at everyone on the street(which I do usually, but with more happiness than usual)? I'd say this is quite a lovely feeling. Which reminds me, I need to watch Love Actually before Christmas. OHH I'm so excited! You know, my family has this tradition of watching A Muppets Christmas Carol, the night of Christmas, after the rest of my family has gone to their homes. It's gonna be great, just the six of us (don't forget Poco and Chewy!) on the couch, watching the Muppets, together. Haha I sound like such a sap! But you know what! That's ok, because everything is ok, and I'm in love and it's Christmas time.

I hope you had a good day today. Because after all, it is Thursday :)

P.S. Something from my childhood that I hope makes you smile (worth the copy and paste!):

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=OzfyK_0fmIU

The Essence of Complaint

I am currently killin time before sleepiness, bloggin, facebookin, and listening to the love actually soundtrack because it makes my heart feel all fuzzy and warm and happy. Yay happy hearts :)
However, I am in a bit of a pickle (which is a nice change from the recent career catastrophe) WHICH BY THE WAY. Didn't get resolved at all. I had a small possible epiphany, but changed my mind, until Sunday, when I got the best advice so far. My friend Mike said "Marianne, be you, and be happy. You have alot going to you and shouldn't stress, because the future will work itself out." And so for now, I'm chilling on the matter.
Back to the pickle. Actually multiple pickles all related to one giant pickle. Like a vegetable tray. I have 3 more Arabic classes left in this semester.
Vegetable 1) The teacher has yet to tell us when the final is.
Vegetable 2) He refuses to give us a study guide.
Vegetable 3) We just started a new book today. Which apparently, will have most of the final material in it. Mind you we have 3 classes left.
Vegetable 4) The used book I ordered like 4 months ago was supposed to come with a DVD. I didn't realize this until today. It did however come with a creepy distorted kodak picture of a nice looking girl and this ugly curly haired kid with (what I assume to be) a worm that was once submerged in tequila, now stuck up his nose. What the hell.
Vegetable 5) The DVD that I should have obtained has most of the material for the final on it.

So I'm wondering....is this normal for a college class? I really don't want to be complaining if it is. But I never expected a professor to be so sporadic and unpredictable with the subject matter. Like seriously, he hasn't told us when the final will be. 3 classes left.

My question for you: my fault or the professor's? Am I unprepared or is this situation as odd as I think it is? Advice is appreciated.

Just let me ramble a bit

Today was a very good day. I accomplished a lot of work, put up Christmas stuff, hung out with a cool person pretty much most of the day.
I'm really feeling Christmasy. Maybe it's just my family, but everyone is so much...glow-y around this time. And you're not as bothered by the little annoying things. Instead of piling up like usual,they evaporate. Which is a nice thought.

The four things on my mind right now are:
1) dubstep
2) cinnamon apple tea
3) my stupid career choice and Mark Zukerberg
4) scholarships

At first this list seems a bit intimidating, but the wonderful thing about fall break is it is chill as HELLLLLL. I could be any range of emotions right now, but I have no idea, cause it's so chill! I've come to appreciate chillness.
The silliest of the list, number 3. I just finished watching the social network ( it was pretty decent) and I got thinking about the whole career thing once more. Ya know I think I'm really jealous of super smart people. Like Mark Zukerberg. I wish I could do cool stuff like that. Obviously I couldn't invent facebook but...do you get what I mean? There was a line in the movie where someone said "Harvard students invent careers for themselves"
And I think, hey, I could do that. But then I think, wait, am I smart enough to do that? Not that I doubt how if my brain works or not. Just that...you know. I'm confident about myself...but not in that department. Because- who knows if I CAN be confident? I don't think I'm one of those people. Gah. I just don't want to go through life wondering if I could have done better. If I could've pushed myself more or aimed higher. Do other people do this? I certainly hope so...hah.
Are these blogs too long and rambly for anyone to actually read? Please let me know. And I hope I don't come off as whiny. Any help would be highly appreciated with the whole career thing btw.
Someone randomly just come up to me on the street and be like "hey! you'd be a great ______________"

That'd be nice but it's not gonna happen like that. At least I know I'm trying to work it out =)

3 Idiots is a Fantastic Movie

That anyone who is ever going to go to college should totally watch. Like, damn. I really like it when Hindi movies impress me. Cause they do get kinda formulaic after awhile. But I still really like them, like alot =D Anywho, it was this really great movie about these three bros and they're at this engineering school and it's super hard and just watch it ok!! Sooooo good. It got me thinking about the whole college and what-am-I-going-to-do-for-the-rest-of-my-life-thing. I knoooooow I've blogged about this before and given it a million thoughts, but it's inevitable.
That movie made me understand why I can't decide on a career. (without exaggeration) I'm really torn between "doing what I love" and (basically) "getting a degree for a career that I'm pretty cool with that pays well so I can take care of everyone". And by take care of everyone....I mean like giving back. I wanna buy my mom one of those blue toothpaste colored cars or a Thunderbird and I want to buy my dad a house in Colorado and take him on trips to mountains and stuff and make sure that my parents don't have to work anymore then they have to and that my brother is taken care of and can have his own place someday and that I'll always be able to help my friends and that I can do cool things like build a hospital in Sierra Leone. Honestly thats what will make me happy. So do I reach this happiness (which inevitably involves lots of money) by doing something that I love or by toleration or something like along those lines?? Despite all these running thoughts I still have this unwavering faith that God will throw me into whatever life I'm meant to have; the places I should go and the career I should do and the people I am supposed to be with. I just really wish he would let me in on the plan sometimes though.


Even if I go with the first option, I WILL feel selfish. Because then I'm just out for myself right? And I can't help but want to make the people I love. Like, at our class reunion, I wanna be SOMETHING. I don't want to "settle" with my life. I mean, ok I was on our local tv station for this event I helped out with where I got interviewed, and my grandparents were really proud. Like, super proud. And that was just me being on TV talking to a police chief! I dunno man. Am I thinkin too much?

If I go with option two, I know I'll find happiness eventually. But when is eventually? I don't want that kind of ambition to digest my soul. I wish I wanted to be a doctor. I really do, but I don't. And I wish I wanted to be an engineer or some crazy entrepreneur, but I don't. I know I could be a brilliant advertiser. And that isn't me just making that up; I know I'd be good at that and I would make a lot of money and be successful. But if I was an advertising executive I would hate myself. I can't stand anything business related, I just couldn't devote my life to that. This is all rather complicated. I'm sorry if you've read this far; I really don't wanna sound like that dude in Notes from Underground. I'm just tryin to figure this out.

Things I Could Have Done With My Evening...

So tonight I finished most of my homework before 9pm in order to watch 3 Idiots. I couldn't figure out how to get it to work, so instead of being productive, I stayed online for three hours reading FMLS and surfing youtube and doing absolutely positively nothing. So here is a list of things I could have done but didn't think of or chose not to do.

1) Sleep. That would've been nice.
2) Actually read the book for AP Lit homework. Also would have come in handy in the future.
3) Watched a movie that I've been wanting to watch for awhile. Sorry, Lagaan.
4) Updated my zune. Which I waited until now to do. 12% done at 11:30pm. wooooooo
5) Wrote this blog earlier!
6) Watched ALL of Outsourced.
7) Tried harder to study physics.
8) Applied for scholarships!
9) Started reviewing for bio olympiad. Sorry, bio.
10) Attempted to start Nanowrimo, which I actually have an idea for now.
11) BEEN PRODUCTIVE IN ANY POSSIBLE WAY!!!
12) Refrained from eating that bowl of ramen for dinner. Sorry, stomach.
13) Figured out where all my pictures from my computer went.
14) Researched for spring break location.
15) Taken my dog for a walk.
16) Do some of Arabic Unit 6, which I have neglected for about a week now. Sorry, weekend.
17) Figured out how to make sock puppets.
18) Learn enough Hindi so I could've watched 3 Idiots without subtitiles. Totally could've done that.
19) Cleaned my room!
20) File all of my college info.
21) GONE TO BED AND ACTUALLY GOTTEN A DECENT AMOUNT OF REST!!!!!
22) Not waited until now to discover that OMGOSH BUG AND LILLY GOT TOGETHER ON CROSSING JORDAN BUT THEN BUG WAS SUSPECTED FOR TERRORISM AND TORTURED AND WAS NEVER THE SAME AGAIN!!!!!???? eff you writers.
23) DONE ANYTHING PRODUCTIVE.

this list makes me mad at myself. that was such a pomhead thing to do. efffffffffffffffffffffffffffffffff ok I'm going to bed

I'm supposed to be doing something else...

...right now. But! I would rather do this for now than Arabic. Which is aight. I'm definitely not dual enrolling next semester. The whole go to school all day than go to class 4 hours later thing isn't all that awesome. But waking up late is soooooooooo nice....like...even if I go to sleep at 11 I'm STILL getting 8 hours of sleep! Arabic is cool even though no one in the class knows whats going on. In retrospect I probably should've taken an advanced Spanish class (so I could recover my Spanish skills! which are suffering) or microbio. I miss bio. Isn't that sick?




Homecoming is in two weeks. And I NEEEEED to stop being a control freak about certain things. Such as group size, for example. I like to "plan" these kind of things and thought my friends and I could go to homecoming with a group of 20 or under. That was silly of me. People are too nice and want other people to feel included. I have half a mind to just go with a few other people. But..but...but... eh I guess the matter will figure itself out

Uhh lets see what do I wanna talk about. Oh, eff physics. No, mostly eff uncertainty and it's horrible annoying tendency to make this lab 2 days late, make me receive 50% on it, then have no clue how to fix it. Damn you uncertainty. No one needs you anyway.

On a happier note, I really wanna watch Lagaan (which I have owned for like 2 months and have yet to see) I already know all the songs too! Maybe thats what I should be doing right now haha. I also really wanna watch The Great Mouse Detectives. That was an excellent movie back in the day, still is. Back when mice in cartoon movies could smoke pipes and shoot guns and no one cared.




Life is going good. I'm really really-OHMYGOSHIDIDNTEVENMENTIONFRIDAY!!!!
SO on Friday I'm going to see Jay Sean. I actually won tickets, and I am unbelievably excited. Seriously, I gotta extend my list for the greatest (possible) nights of my life. Right now quite a few of the top spots are from this year =) that's a good sign






As I was saying I'm super excited for Friday. And Saturday. And Sunday. And the whole week after that.

I'm down like the e-co-no-myyyyyyy. hehe :D

The Past Few Days

A review!

Good Things:
The first day of school (and last first day of school I guess...) was a pretty dang good day! I went to school, went to AP Bio for the 2nd year in a row (hehe, no first block) and went to my other 5 very easy classes. I really love waking up late. And I really love how I didn't give myself a horrible schedule. And I love how I hung out until 7 on Tuesday. Just like those sophomore days :D:D Today was a good day too. Finished a college essay (finally) and went to Arabic class. Which was actually kinda stressful today. Apparently I looked like I was about to cry the whole time, but I was just super tired. haha poor teacher thinkin he was making me upset. I guess thats just my default face; when I don't put effort into my expression.

Bad Things:
Actually there really isn't anything bad about this year so far! I don't like how I almost never see Rahul in school. And I don't like how I don't know where most of my friends are in school until certain times of the day. And I don't like how I am a failure of a Student Ambassador because I have yet to find my foreign exchange students (who had to find their own way around the first 2 days...opps) But really thats about it! Just the lil hiccups of life.

I'm still excited about this year <3

What I Should Write for College Essays

Hokay, so I'm hoping my blog will get me in the writing-about-myself-and-how-college-worthy-I-am-mood.
SOOO. What should I write my common app essay about? Here are the options, as I try to think through them.

Evaluate a significant experience, achievement, risk you have taken, or ethical dilemma you have faced and its impact on you.

Well, I've never climbed a roof if that's what you're lookin for. Can't remember the last time I faced an ethical dilemma...what are my significant experiences?? Do I even have any??? Oh man.

Discuss some issue of personal, local, national, or international concern and its importance to you.
Immigration? The intense connections yet lack of understanding in our modern world?? Racism?? The importance of spell check at 1:28 am??


Indicate a person who has had a significant influence on you, and describe that influence.
Samuel L. Jackson. He taught me how to be a badassmuthafuka. Essay done.


Describe a character in fiction, a historical figure, or a creative work (as in art, music, science, etc.) that has had an influence on you, and explain that influence.
Whoever invented chocolate milk. Apparently some dude named Daniel Peter in 1875. Yeah, I'd say that's a hell of an influence.


A range of academic interests, personal perspectives, and life experiences adds much to the educational mix. Given your personal background, describe an experience that illustrates what you would bring to the diversity in a college community, or an encounter that demonstrated the importance of diversity to you.
You mean talk about how awesome I am? Ughh.


Topic of your choice.
Eff that. FINE! I wanna make an essay all about reverse transcriptase and how, like the cool lil virus, I will use my past experiences to infect and enrich my college community! Ohh man I wanna do that. Then I can use biology terms to make myself sound smarter than I actually am. YAY :D

I'm probably not gonna go with that idea, but I'll write a paragraph about it and take two good sentences from it :D

In other news....

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=FWsQQgbKkjc

I love Germans and their fun techno.

This Summer

Now before I start my common app work for the night, I feel like blogging again. And a topic I would like to address is this summer. The weird thing about this summer is "schedules". It's the kinda thing where I'll call up someone and be like "Hey! When do you wanna hang? Free today?" And the conversation goes something like "Oh no I have (work/practice/some other time commitment) does (blank) day work for you?" "Ahh no I have (another commitment) that day. What about...." and so on and so forth. Now we've been workin around schedules all junior year, ya know? This is nothin new. But the reason it SUCKS so much this summer, is that this is how life is gonna be now. It'll be even worse once all my friends and I go to college. And who knows about next summer! Unless everyone I know and love decides not to get a job (extremely unlikely), not take summer classes (even more unlikely, considering the tendencies of alot of people I know), and not leave on family vacations, next summer will be even more difficult to navigate though. Like, frick. I mean we've made the best of it. It has been a good summer, but the reality is last summer was mind blowingly awesome and this one was decent. Ehhhhhhhh I sound like a whiny teenager. I'm lucky to have a summer and time and all that. But I won't get another high school =/

Regardless of all this, today was a decent day. Woke up at 1, bought school stuff, went to work, went over to Rahul's and watched half of Toy Story 3 (:DDDDDDDDDDD)

Dear 11:11 wish that I missed,
Please add 6 more weeks to the summer, that'd be fine.
Amen <3

After Work Ramen

is what I'm eating right now! I hate now being able to eat at work. It's like...being in school, and everyone is allowed to have gum and has packs upon packs of it, but you can't have any. So 6 hours of being around those edible dishes has caused me to create this sauce (which now kinda looks scarey) to put on my ramen. The good thing about living in a half-Italian-American house is that we always have pasta sauce, cheese, and olive oil on hand. I think I used too much olive oil. Ehhhh awkward. But its good!! And the sauce:ramen ratio is off. Yeah this definitely needs...whats it called...the thing you put things through to get all the water out? Sift? But its not a sift. Oh man my mind is gone tonight.

Work was good today, made a new friend whilst working, got some tips, and changed my schedule so I have 2 key days for next week off. I like it when things work out.

So now I'm home, eating ramen, talking to my cousin about her latest boy adventures, and listening to old school Jay Sean (who, btw, looks INSANELY awkward dancing with this chick in the video). I don't mind this chill time very much, but I'm annoyed by the fact that usually I would've been coming home in 5 minutes/and/or stalling for another half hour. Tis a weird thing about this summer. A weird thing indeed....

It's been awhile...

Since a certain boyfriend of mine (of the Rahul-persuasion) decided to be a creeper and read my ancient blogs, I've been reminded of how fun they were to write =) so I'm back online! at least for this post. A lot has happened since November of 2009. I finished junior year of high school (holy crap) finished my two APs (4 in bio and 5 in lang, woooo), started summer, got a job, went to the UP, went on a canoe trip, came home, and now I'm here!
It's been a crazy week; I was in Rifle River on an amaaaaaazing canoe trip with some awesome people. We canoed, tubed, flipped each other over, camped, played confusing camp fire games, chilled, had mass outside, had a Jesus Rave, and watched shooting starts together. I got back on Thursday, worked today, and missed hangout with Patti in AA (=''''''() but I did get to chill with the previously mentioned boyfriend before he went on his mini-vacation/college tour/grad party thing. And he got me a chocolate cupcake!! which was my dinner tonight btw (probably one of the best dietary decisions I've made all week). I am also now the proud mother of a baby cloud named Moon Bounce. I'm very worried about how he will adjust to his new life in here. Parenting brings alot of worries, even for cloud parents (hehe).
This weekend shall bring a Saturday of working and calling people to adjust my all-of-a-sudden-jam-packed-schedule, and then a Sunday of finding out who is still in town that I can hang with/possible AP Euro work. Aren't I a normal teenager!! Uh I guess that's all for now.

Here's a picture of Cloudy before he floated on home! He has his father's eyes...isn't that adorable!

Red Pandas....

the cutest lil buddies you ever did see.

I have a story to tell

it's not very long, its about all the Sneetches and what they did wrong! Just kidding, that was last years story. Today's story however is one filled with adventure,excitement,and death-defying feats (as well as car trouble).
It's Friday. As usual it took everyone after school a reallllly long time to figure out what we were gonna do. We made it out to the parking lot and me and Rahul jumped in his perfectly-reversed-in-the-7th-spot-from-the-school-car (he was very proud) and started to drive off to Gatorville. Why the heck were we going to Gatorville? Wellll I don't knoooooooooooooooow! Anywho we went on our way,decided to turn around and head towards Northville,only to call people and find out they didn't wanna go. SO we turned around again (after going through a roundabout about 7 times) and went to this park to wait for everyone to figure out a logical plan. I wanted to go explore the forest, so we get out and we're walkin around and talking and blahblablablah. Then at one point Rahul turns around and we both see this dude in a GORILLA SUIT stalking us. I KID YOU NOT. It was damn freaky. He was wearing this really creepy bloody gorilla mask. Our initial reaction was "Oh, hey hows it goin?" He kept trying to hide behind a tree, occasionally peaking off to the side. Since he wouldn't talk, and we were honestly a tad creeped out, we started walking back to the car. And he followed us. Then I just waved bye and he waved in a creepy gorilla fashion back. And we got in the car and drove to Gatorville. What the eff.
We discovered an abandoned building on our way to Gatorville, explored a bit, then continued onward (because of the truck that was there). Shadyy. So once we get to Gatorville we wanna explore some more right? We started walking down this ATV-lookin trail-it went on forever. We just kept walkin and walkin and it never ended. It must've been like a trail for the powerline matinence, right by the freeway too. SHADYYYYYY. And the rest of the group had been walkin on the other side of the forest! Great minds, ya know. We chilled for a bit then left to meet up with the other third of the group. When the car turned on, "Down" was playing. So flippin shady yet awesome!!!
Only bad thing that happened today is Rahul's car broke =( my dad looked at it (yay father-boyfriend-ly bonding) and they figured it out,but it still kinda sucks.

Quite the shady day-I liked it though.

Why Today Was Awesome

It's 11:24, I need sleep desperately, but I need to get this down before I forget.
TODAY WAS A REALLY GREAT WEDNESDAY BECAUSE:

1) School was easy, lots of movies, lots of pre-Halloween candy
2) I drove myself to school and felt a unrestrained sense of freedom whilst doing so
3) We took down the field hockey stuff and I got to see jv again =) I also may be in the running for an assistant coach position next year.
4) Juhee is a cool chick.
5) I'm gonna be bat girl for Halloween. NANANANANANANANANANANA!
6) Me and Rahul hung out which created an afternoon/evening of euphoria,no kiddin
7) FREE JIMMY JOHNS!!! so dang good
8) We saw Andrea at work! and I learned how to correctly play a G chord!
9) Rahul and I (correct grammar for all you freaks) sat on a park bench in Northville and it was really fun
10) We got to drive the Edge too! Specialness!
11) The trees are gorgeous so we went to a park and went tree watching
12) It felt like a spring day!
13) Nonni's surgery went well =D
14) My mom didn't mind that I got home late
15) My Dad bought more candy from greenfield village
16) I found $20 in my pocket
17) Rahul is considering not taking linear algebra, score one for the underachievers!
18) "Down" came on the radio as soon as I turned it on
19) TV was really funny today
20) We're 2 days from the weekend
21) Studying was pretty easy cause I'm in such a happy mood
22) I feel really carpe-diemy and really giggly and really frickin happy
23) I have a semi-conversation with Jonathan Larson's sister. THE JULIE LARSON. Her brother Jonathan wrote RENT!. Big deal. Huge deal. She said that "she is always happy to hear about young people who love rent, its what Jonathan would've wanted" I cried.
24) Owl City has really cool lyrics like

then we'll take a long walk through the cornfield,
and I'll kiss you between the ears <3

I feel very content, very excited for life, very grateful for this day, very in love, and very not caring if this post is a paint splatter of happiness across this blog....cause life is cool like that.

Just Harvestin' Some Pineapples...

Oh farmville. Such a blessing...and yet such a curse. I've discovered the wonderful prosperity of being a pineapple farmer who specializes in diffrent flavored cows. I'd love to do that as a career =D but the farming business is a tricky one, gonna stick with plan A.
Today I figured out what I'm going to write about for NanoWrimo! You're supposed to write about something you know right? And while I am lacking in giant chunks of time to devote to this, I ruled out any plot ideas that involved research and/or a major amount of thinking. Which brought me to the I-Really-Hope-This-Isn't-Copying-Sourik's-Idea-Idea. I've decided to make an account of the adventures of the past 1-2 years of myself and my friends. It shall be divided up into sections, and basically be a short story collection that all have something to do with eachother. Names will be changed,but I'll be having fun with that XD. Hopefully it won't turn out to be another stupid teenager books-I want it to be deeper than that. A memoir almost. I'm excited XD
After spending a good 20 minutes harvesting my pineapple-y crops (while multitasking of course...) I've decided to actually start on some work. OH! So I did that status calculator thing on facebook and the 5 words I use most are "happy,day,today,excited,and good". I sure sound optimistic...which I am. Yay.

That Blogged Calmed Me Down!

Coolio!